That is all I can really say it seems like. Brooklyn has had a hard time adjusting to david being gone. She hs been screaming and slamming doors. I feel like everyday I am just lossing the battle. I feel like I am getting worked over. I am sure she knows that I am stressed. It seems as though I am not as good as de-stressing this time.
She was really upset and so I was talking ot her today and she said she was sad becuse daddy cant be with us right now. IT jsut broke my heart. Here is this little thing that has so many things going on and our days are usaully filled going here and there. She is proably just dying inside for something. I dont know what to do. I feel so quilty that we are jsut going and going since we have been here. They arent able to go and play outside for very long like they are used to.
I jsut wish that I knew how to handle situations like this better. I have had alot of help out here and I really appreciate it but this is one thing I dont know how to handle. I just want to hug her all day and tell her that in tow short weeks we will be home. I love my kids so much I want to do the best I can for them.
Well I will start fresh and destressed tomorrow.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Hello again!
Well david is gone and I havent really sat down to write anything since he has been gone. Dawson is asleep and brooklyna dnLandon are playing at there cousins house. They are playing at connor and graces house.
Well It has been reallynice to be in utah right now. It is a great distraction. I have noticed brooklyn has been a littel harder. I can tell she ahs something bothering her and doesnt know how to handle it. I feel bad because I dont know how to help her. There has been so mcuh going on day to day and she has doen such a good job at going along with everything and everybody. I just wish that I could make this time go by faster for them.
It has been really nice to have my mom to watch dawson so I can take brooklyn adn Landon out to do stuff. We went tubing at solider hollow that was realy fun to take just the two and spend somet ime wiht them. I also took the two to the dinosaur museum at thanksgiving point. IT was really neat. They had a great time.
The kids are having a great tiem with the cousins. We are going to st george for the weekend comign upo so that will be nice. Some of my sisters and there kids are coming down so that will be fun. We are going to see davids dad adn terry while we are there so that will be fun.
I am havign agreat time. IT has beena nice distrction. I do have to admit that i woke up a little on the grumpy side today. I have jsut hit a day were I am tired. The last few months I have been doing so good about taking time for me. I have worked hard out excersisng adn really taking care of myslef. I havent really done that much about it here. I think that makes me more frustrated. I start the week of really well. Then by about wednesday I give up. Oh well today is sunday so you know what that means. I am going to start the week off good tomorrow.
When the time comes I will be ready to go home. I cant wait to see david. I miss him so much. I wish I could just call him and talk to him for hours. I hope he is doing well and I cant wait to see him. I know the kids cnat wait either.
So off to a mood change and a big diet coke. That always makes you feel better. That is what monday is for start the week of strong and with good intentions.
Well It has been reallynice to be in utah right now. It is a great distraction. I have noticed brooklyn has been a littel harder. I can tell she ahs something bothering her and doesnt know how to handle it. I feel bad because I dont know how to help her. There has been so mcuh going on day to day and she has doen such a good job at going along with everything and everybody. I just wish that I could make this time go by faster for them.
It has been really nice to have my mom to watch dawson so I can take brooklyn adn Landon out to do stuff. We went tubing at solider hollow that was realy fun to take just the two and spend somet ime wiht them. I also took the two to the dinosaur museum at thanksgiving point. IT was really neat. They had a great time.
The kids are having a great tiem with the cousins. We are going to st george for the weekend comign upo so that will be nice. Some of my sisters and there kids are coming down so that will be fun. We are going to see davids dad adn terry while we are there so that will be fun.
I am havign agreat time. IT has beena nice distrction. I do have to admit that i woke up a little on the grumpy side today. I have jsut hit a day were I am tired. The last few months I have been doing so good about taking time for me. I have worked hard out excersisng adn really taking care of myslef. I havent really done that much about it here. I think that makes me more frustrated. I start the week of really well. Then by about wednesday I give up. Oh well today is sunday so you know what that means. I am going to start the week off good tomorrow.
When the time comes I will be ready to go home. I cant wait to see david. I miss him so much. I wish I could just call him and talk to him for hours. I hope he is doing well and I cant wait to see him. I know the kids cnat wait either.
So off to a mood change and a big diet coke. That always makes you feel better. That is what monday is for start the week of strong and with good intentions.
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